Still here guys, no baby just yet! I have had lots of lovely messages asking if baby is here yet or if I’ve had any signs and the answer to that is.. nope. I’m not too surprised to be honest, I always knew I’d go over and to be honest if I was allowed I’d probably get to the full 42 weeks without him being here but as I have mentioned before in videos and blog posts I will be getting induced if baby is not here by 41 weeks which is Thursday. The reason why my consultant has suggested to induce me is because of my previous cesarean, she doesn’t really want me to go much further than the 41 weeks due to risk of rupturing the scar and also baby boy is said to be quite large according to the scans although I still think he will be quite a normal size.
How do I feel about another induction? A little nervous to be honest, my first didn’t quite go to plan and ended in a cesarean. I think that is because I was induced due to high blood pressure and not because I was late so Vinny just wasn’t quite ready to come out. This time the reason I’m nervous is because when trying for a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) they say less intervention is best to achieve a successful VBAC but if it’s something I have to do then it’s something I have to do. I have been pretty relaxed when it comes to the birth of this baby and I don’t really mind how he gets here as long as he is happy and safe. The reason why I didn’t just book a planned section was because I just wanted to see if I could do this on my own and also because I found the recovery quite hard when I had my first section. It’s definitely painful, I do think I would cope better this time knowing what to expect but it does also scare me a lot.
With regards to how I’m feeling at the moment, I feel OK. A little fed up now and ready to meet this little guy, I’m in quite a lot of discomfort with regards to my belly as it feels quite heavy now and my body just generally feels quite sensitive and sore at the moment so god only knows how I will feel once things get started and if all goes to plan. I say plan, there is no real plan baby boy will arrive as and when he likes and I deep down think it will be by another cesarean. I just don’t think my body is up for giving birth, it’s so bizarre but when you just know, you know and I am one of those mothers that I don’t think will get to experience labor naturally. I have been looking for every little sign, each and every day hoping that something will happen and I’ve tried all of the old wives tales and still nothing. I just believe baby will be here when he is ready.
Another thing with this induction that will be different to the last time is that they will only try one pessary, last time I had 3 then had my waters broken then was put onto a drip… so chances of going into labour after one pessary within the 24 hours are quite slim. I still have hope and that’s why I haven’t just said ‘screw it let’s just book a section’ because even if I do go into labor and it ends in a section like the last time I don’t really mind I’m just so excited to go through it all again and experience it…. I sound mad I know!
I’d love to hear your experiences if you’ve been through similar in the past, it won’t be much longer now and we can all finally say hello to the little man!
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